Have you heard the story about Music?

Any one that spends any length of time with me knows that music is a HUGE part of who I am. I can't drive down the road without the radio playing, can't clean without my mp3 player on, and connect most major memories to songs. I'm constantly turning conversations into silly songs, this week's run has been little tunes about the kids to keep them moving.
Music is my key to surviving all the nonsense that life throws at me. Different points in my life have required different theme songs, sometimes ironic or funny and other times simply accurate to the moment. My latest theme song for several years now has been Rob Thomas's Unwell. All my kids know every line and Geoff can often be heard belting it out as he walks home from middle school.
Music is often also my inspiration and the only way to calm my sensory sensitive kiddos down on especially bad days. Today was one of those days. It began with Spencer crying his way to school for the second day this week and finally convincing a few watching administrators that something has to change. Immediately following that wonderful scene I spent some time on the phone with the assistant principal discussing the stress my middle schooler is feeling, also due to his sensory processing issues. After this particularly painful attempt in getting all my kiddos to school (and not fully succeeding), I rushed to work with a still crying little guy in the back seat.
Rounding the corner to work I got a new theme song. I've heard it hundreds of times, but today it hit me a little harder than before. As I felt the words sinking in, I cranked up the radio and listened as my Spencer hummed along. Thank you Rob Thomas for making it all okay again.

Someday- by Rob Thomas

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry

And maybe Someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run, oh
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be so warm

And I don't want to wait
I just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow

Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Resolute

After a quick review of 2010, I have decided on one simple goal for 2011: to wake up. I realized this last week that the traumas of 2009 seemed to trickle into 2010 and I all but gave up trying in many areas of my life. I closed my eyes and ignored what I didn’t have the brain power to acknowledge and let slide what felt like too much effort. Not anymore.
• I plan to take a closer look at how I schedule my time.
• I plan to review each week with an open mind and make adjustments.
• I want to look in my children's faces as they talk about their day and enjoy
their reactions to the new things they discover.
• I want to see those around me for who they are trying to be and recognize
how my actions might affect them.
• I plan to be alert to the opportunities presented to me, both for my benefit
and to benefit others.
• I plan to step back and absorb the beauty in the world every chance I get.
• I want to smile more and see my friends’ eyes light up with joy as often as
possible.
• I want to take a hard look at myself and make some much needed changes for
my health.
Here I go, into a new year with eyes wide open! Happy New Year friends!