Showing posts with label sensory processing disorder. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sensory processing disorder. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Run Aways

Today seemed like every other day until I returned from taking Madi to school. The garage light was on, doors open, and my younger 2 boys were gone. I'm sure you can imagine the panic running through my head as I went back and forth between thoughts of them playing a trick and hiding or being kidnapped. Neither were true. After 5 minutes of frantic searching and yelling I saw a shadow through the window by the front door... they were standing on the porch debating whether to come inside.
Life for my two middle schoolers has apparently become harder then they wanted to admit or could handle. They told me of their frustration with being overwhelmed in class, not being able to focus on the directions given, and then feeling they would get in trouble at home if they complained. 
My 14yr old had been planning this since Christmas, bringing my 11yr old into the plan in February.  Official plans has begun weeks ago. Geoff had printed maps at school saying, 'you'd be amazed what they let you do on the computer if they think it's for a project.' Water bottles had been filled and placed in the fridge days ago. Survival backpacks had been refilled with blankets, rope, extra clothes, books, CD players, a bag of change, flashlights, and an umbrella.
They planned to head West on their bikes toward Benton City, Prosser, then on to Seattle where they'd clean people's yards to earn money and eventually sell their bikes to purchase plane tickets. The goal was travel to LA, then Florida, New York, and finally Paris. Big dreams unlikely to happen but I have to give them points for planning.
Obviously my little actors had us all fooled that life was okay. We failed in a big way to see how much they were really hurting. Life will be making some big changes. I'm still not sure what changed their minds and made them come back home, they had already made it a few blocks away. I'm just glad they did.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Have you heard the story about Music?

Any one that spends any length of time with me knows that music is a HUGE part of who I am. I can't drive down the road without the radio playing, can't clean without my mp3 player on, and connect most major memories to songs. I'm constantly turning conversations into silly songs, this week's run has been little tunes about the kids to keep them moving.
Music is my key to surviving all the nonsense that life throws at me. Different points in my life have required different theme songs, sometimes ironic or funny and other times simply accurate to the moment. My latest theme song for several years now has been Rob Thomas's Unwell. All my kids know every line and Geoff can often be heard belting it out as he walks home from middle school.
Music is often also my inspiration and the only way to calm my sensory sensitive kiddos down on especially bad days. Today was one of those days. It began with Spencer crying his way to school for the second day this week and finally convincing a few watching administrators that something has to change. Immediately following that wonderful scene I spent some time on the phone with the assistant principal discussing the stress my middle schooler is feeling, also due to his sensory processing issues. After this particularly painful attempt in getting all my kiddos to school (and not fully succeeding), I rushed to work with a still crying little guy in the back seat.
Rounding the corner to work I got a new theme song. I've heard it hundreds of times, but today it hit me a little harder than before. As I felt the words sinking in, I cranked up the radio and listened as my Spencer hummed along. Thank you Rob Thomas for making it all okay again.

Someday- by Rob Thomas

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry

And maybe Someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run, oh
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be so warm

And I don't want to wait
I just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow

Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday